Well it is no lie when someone tells you to love, cuddle and spend time with your kids because time flies. Months 1-4 have felt like a blink. I am somewhat panicked because to be honest I am relying on my self too much. I am constantly in fear of being a horrible parent. I think last night I had a eureka moment or maybe it was a swift kick in the tail from the Holy Spirit. No matter what I am going to fail, people fail each other. Being willing to acknowledge your failures, make efforts to change them and move on I suppose is vital. I am honestly thankful and grateful for the gift God has given me through Ainsley. She causes me to truly reflect and want to be better, not just a better mommy but wife, daughter, friend and so on. It really is true that your kids show you things you might not have been willing to see before. I pray I don't waste four months or four years unwilling to reflect and therefore unwilling to change. I pray for God's grace and mercy and ultimately for time to SLOW down...
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